Crazy how I got to know a girl a little I thought liked me but if I decide to do gaming and not check my phone for a portion of the day I get blocked. Anyone who’s gonna send 6 messages without a response should take a hint maybe I’m busy and they need to entertain themselve!
I’d love to have a girlfriend but not if I can’t enjoy my gaming or any form of entertainment for 6 hours of the day. I’m baffled how fast things lasted before I didn’t matter anymore, it’s super crappy to me!
Girls are rarely into me and if they are I’m lucky if it lasts more than a few days or months in real life or social media. Not sure if it’s an aspie thing or just part of quarantine where people are more on edge especially with lack of things to do during where as I’m golden for as long as I need to.
Lastly I know I don’t blog much I’m sorry for that sometimes I have a subject that puzzles me with massive confusion and a little bit of anger. Maybe it’ll be easier for me one day in terms of relationships for now I’ll remain lonely.
Barely been in healthy enough mindset due to lockdown, so tired of living with my mom and sister they can be so hard to be around. I’m lucky to have plenty of entertainment for ions, I’d be a hella of a lot worse without my comforts.
Such an unfortunate and ghoulish thing how I feel so unwanted by hundreds of people, I’d do anything to get some good things to come my way! I wish I could also apologize to everyone whom expects more from me and thinks I’m capable of things that, well aspies aren’t packed with skills plus not a pedophile like some think!
Just a form of my venting despite the subject matter although I have had some amazing dreams that very much intrigued my inspiration, I’d totally have at least 15 ideas to pitch if I knew the right people. Hmm the uncertainty is powerful or weak either way I have fun with that.
I don’t know where my mind goes sometimes it unnerves me quite a bit. The realm of light and darkness seeping through opening a covered cave is my life in a nutshell.
Been a dreadful time mixed with very few good things especially in the last month! Lots of toxic energy lately that has burrowed into me and made my sleep rough including my IBS. Some crave negative things that have occurred which is mind blowing! It might be just be me but I feel like autistic people don’t have enough positive things happen.
It’s kinda like a never ending fall to an abyss sometimes; I feel like I can’t make it stop. The struggle of being lonely and interacting with people that I shouldn’t is something that feels re entry of poison seeping back in occasionally.
Either way I hope everyone else is doing well, I try to spread positivity to most people. It tends to vary the ones that accept me for the quirky being I am.
The wonder emporium of emotions people deal with especially during quarantine is bizarre! An open book of intriguing traits I am.“I can’t be of a group what am I am”? Great little riddle of a lonely person. I’m packed with confusing things to say I’m sorry for that at least I’ve been safe with endless entertainment of video games and film!