Baffled

I wish people understood I don’t have much help in life except my mom and very few others so when people ask for money it’s infuriating cause I’m in the same boat and some ask when to often. I don’t know what to do about it!

Maybe some enjoy my kindness to much when I relate but I get taken advantage of more than most humans on earth and it hurts my soul. How hard is it to understand I have Aspergers and I can’t offer much!?

On another my birthday is August 4th I’ll be 29 that’s pretty exciting for me especially since July has been a tough month! I hope everyone that sees this is doing better I’m disoriented cause my sleep has been clunky.

Lastly I’ve loved going to the movie theater whenever possible I so wish more could be normal for society at some point. I would like to blog more maybe get better stuff happening next week any support is appreciated!

Frustration about Covid

Can’t this Covid go away I’m so fed up! I had an amazing time at the movies finally last week and today there’s an article of cases rising; I wish this shit would fuck off so people can enjoy life again!

I was enlightened recently now I’m unsure if Covid would ever end cause more cases rise. Aspies crave socializing even though they struggle with it not being able to for me is bizarre I miss people so much.

A definite positive was getting stimulus money and getting so much goodies so at least I have plenty of entertainment that can last me months or longer. I’m not sure if there will be any other stimulus but it was one of the best things ever; I wish I had sources of money making Covid kinda ruined that too.

I’m sorry about my frustration I even have darker thoughts about a lot of things that I don’t know how to express to anyone. Blogging is amazing in an appropriate way for sure.

I’m really sorry I haven’t blogged in awhile!

So much in life has gotten better in the last month or so with healthy vibes, movie theaters finally opened, I’ve gotten a bunch of goodies, and sleeping better than I was.

Exceptional flows of great things need to continue it’s been one of the best years ever! Only thing I don’t have yet is a way to make money for now I’ve been enlightened by what I do have.

I’m not sure why I’ve drifted in a metaphorical boating adventure away from blogging although for anyone interested I’m still doing reviews on #IMDB occasionally I link them and my username is UniqueParticle.

What else is sparking in this bizarre world/mind of Alex is that on PlayStation chats I have people that understand me and others that know me longer yet still don’t understand a lot of my ways that’s always an unsettling feeling. Regardless of anything I’ll try to be on here more especially since my mind flows better when there’s more to do.

Unbelievable what I’ve been dealing with lately on Telegram

Someone recently contacted me in the last week wanted a gift card which is sketchy to me and I sensed that but I try to give people the benefit of the doubt; the craziest thing about is the person wanted me to order it for myself without giving their address or email. I’m infuriated by the ridiculousness I’ve chatted with and wanted to vent.

If someone was legitimately wanting a gift especially a code or a package it’d require the persons email/address not mine. I don’t know why I gravitate towards these type of weirdos that aren’t even smart I mean I hope I’m not wrong sure I’m gullible at times unfortunately but I’ve learned the hard way about things that don’t make sense.

On other positive notes I still write reviews on IMDb my username is UniqueParticle on it and I try to entertain myself most days even with my challenges I try to be healthy.

Today is a weird day for #Valentines Alex experiences relentless loneliness and someone expected money from me even though I usually don’t have much to offer. I’m sorry about my venting I still love my writing regardless of these strange circumstances.