I woke up in a daze from a nightmare last night and a headache this morning. The unimaginable thought provoking experience from a traumatic sleep experience could lead to possibilities of turning that sort of thing into a glorious horror movie! When I was younger I’d wake up sweating from those morbid emotions/dreams I’m blown away it didn’t happen this time although a headache is close enough. My inability to be more normal is astounding even in my sleep I have a meltdown and get beat up by strangers!
Maybe it’s best not to watch Castle Rock before going to bed, I mean the darkness creeps in like no other at times no one would expect. That can be brilliant and horrifying while in my opinion a masterpiece of beauty, yeah man this is epic! Life is exquisite sometimes! #Autism #Nightmares #Tuesdayblog #Fame
Maybe the magic ju ju will invigorate sparks today! The unvering feeling of things not working is really discouraging, I mean I really want to poor my soul out into the words I spew out! I’m super glad a lot of the drama I was dealing with has died down I get really fed up with being a target just cause I don’t understand certain jokes and I’m more sensitive than others. It blows my mind how unhealthy incoherent things can be I get my wired crossed and lose my rhythm, not fun. #Autism #Mondayblog
The large amount of burning truths that weigh on me really put a damper on things and exhausting amount of times I get bullied is enough for me to lose my will to wanna do most things. Maybe I deserve some of the abuse that downpours on me 😩🤷♂️! I can’t do much about my situation or the way I am but yet there’s some that really degrade me just for entertain others and themselves; I wonder who really cares what happens to me. Oh maybe I’m just a negative Nancy but I gotta let it out somehow and blogging seems profound at the moment!
I need more healthy days that’s for damn sure, potentially holidays will be enlightenment. I know there’s good people out in the world 🌎🤔I guess I just get in the wrong connection of them, sorry if my details are not precise. What’s great going on is the amount of movies I get to see and write reviews about. Plenty of occasions where I want changes and I’m stuck in an abyss of my routine among other boring things – Autism isn’t always unique it’s broken and unorthodox while also being rainbows of mixed vibes. The world needs to know more about people like that don’t fit in most ordinary situations! Dark grim bits of puzzles and beautiful aspects go through my mind! #Autism #Fridaythoughts #Blogfun #Incrediblevocabulary
Don’t let the power of others overcome you, I’m told by profound people not let others abuse me which is important and thought provoking! Immerse yourself into this deep dark world maybe it’s better being autistic I get stuck on things worse and pay attention to details better than most think or at least I definitely do with some things.
Hopefully if my words of wisdom ever get more known at least take this into perspective I am not giving up and I’m only in the situation I’m in by choice. I’ve had a lot of trauma and dealt with a bunch of bullies that get me in full rage that’s not healthy; my point though is don’t be like I’ve lost hope because of my disorder and lack of money. I sure as shit hope this wall barrier changes over the next couple years regardless though at least I’m safe. I am literally a pinnacle of oh he’s an easy target let’s pick on him for fun ugh no no this needs to stop! Realizing daunting aspects is buried with file cabinets of fragile! #ASD #Fame #Sundayblog #Inspiration #Bizarre #Rarity
The uncomfortable feeling of tiredness, pain and anxiety is peculiar and unworldly! I’m sorry to anyone whom doesn’t like my thoughts but just like John Candy said on Planes, Trains and Automobiles “I like me, my friends like me”. That’s a profound thing to me, it’s exhausting trying to please others so much no matter who it is. How bout do you and see how well that works out? If not do what I do a majority of the time is avoid people.
Even though I’m dreadfully abysmally lonely I manage pretty well or at least I like to think so. Hmm maybe I need a self help book for Asperger’s syndrome cause most days I’m at a loss. It’s basically like living on island where I rarely see anyone and when I do finally see someone they don’t understand me or my unorthodox mindset. #Autismthoughts #Saturdayblog #ASD #Fame #Peculiar #Depression
It’s super difficult for me to get used to people bashing on me in any form and I have a lot of lack of thoughts to put out. Either way though things like women’s right and hatred confuse me that’s a controversial subject that I get curious about often; both men and women should be respected regardless of many things that’s one thing in this generation people have way out of whack!
Another subject that I absolutely crave is going against certain things in society I totally praise Mr. Robot #SamEsmail deserves millions of respect points. Not enough sources have the balls to put profound things out to me Illuminati is real and people like me suffer with lack of support among other things. Living with #ASD is not easy and it’s depressing wanting so much in life and not being to do much about things.