I feel so much stress, uncertainty, and regret! Crazy how being an aspie I ruin my chances with a girl that I have a huge crush so fast if I’m overly honest like I’m comfortable with and I tend to say things almost no one is ok with.
The anguish of pain for me with the amount of loneliness I deal with is unbearable. My experience getting excited in conversations leads to my hugest mistake of my entire life!
With my luck I guess I’ll be alone forever. This disturbs me so much like recently I thought I connected with the love of my life until I mention a couple overly inappropriate things.
At least I have a reason to blog even though I feel like absolute shit! I my as well have been stabbed in the stomach!
It’s truly incredible to have deep sleep especially when the dreams are exciting and daunting! It’s weird how I’m able to watch a horror movie and sleep peacefully maybe I’m a psycho or just a odd package of unique.
Still very lonely and not much going on at least I’m very entertained most days. I do a lot of gaming, watching stuff, try surveys, and sleep. Pretty mondane unfortunately I wish I had more going on despite the virus!
Man I had a really epic adventurous dream where I was a genius, did something crazy with money got arrested for it had to run from some people getting shot, stayed in a weird jail for a couple days, then went on a train they were gonna take me to a prison in Detroit until I escaped a little bit into the ride went through a forrest some then for some reason I guess I enjoyed criminal self so I got near the train got stopped by some cops & after talking a little with them I woke up it felt amazing for some reason!
An incredible 7 hour sleep, boring morning and extraordinary lunch experience of getting out for the for the first time March to go to Burger Shack then road in the car a bit.
Crazy how I’ve had stomach pain at least 4 times in last week and when that was over I started to have neck pain; madness how difficult it is for me to enjoy a full day without being a hot mess!
Hope everyone in the blog world is doing well I was blown away how many people were out I must be among very few experts that can cope with isolation for a long time. As much as I miss doing more outside things it’s nice once in awhile for sure especially for aspies at least.
Not much new for me unfortunately I do gaming a lot, watch stuff, and write reviews on IMDb very often. I mean I do have a not normal amount of nightmares don’t know where that comes from definitely intriguing to me so it’s ok makes for a good story.
A whirlwind of sensory overload, banging noises galore of getting a new AC unit, and being in pain most the day from siracha I had recently that effects my IBS unfortunately. It’s cool though I signed into back into my LinkedIn today because I was inspired by a wonderful being and I’ve had great gaming progress!
Definitely helps to be content regardless of unique aspects, the bliss of having things set is glorious beyond imaginable! The kicker would be to have the option to celebrate good things by popping a whine bottle, I’d love to experience that at some point. I wonder often if opportunities will come my way I’m not sure at least I’m kept safe and entertained.
Cubicles of danger and enlightenment is the best things that stream through my mind; I’m packed with delight! I may be weird but at least I’m happy most of the time.
Sometimes you gotta out maneuver the evil with joy to keep you sane. As said on The Simpsons “Sometimes you can’t have Paris Lisa.”
Crazy how I got to know a girl a little I thought liked me but if I decide to do gaming and not check my phone for a portion of the day I get blocked. Anyone who’s gonna send 6 messages without a response should take a hint maybe I’m busy and they need to entertain themselve!
I’d love to have a girlfriend but not if I can’t enjoy my gaming or any form of entertainment for 6 hours of the day. I’m baffled how fast things lasted before I didn’t matter anymore, it’s super crappy to me!
Girls are rarely into me and if they are I’m lucky if it lasts more than a few days or months in real life or social media. Not sure if it’s an aspie thing or just part of quarantine where people are more on edge especially with lack of things to do during where as I’m golden for as long as I need to.
Lastly I know I don’t blog much I’m sorry for that sometimes I have a subject that puzzles me with massive confusion and a little bit of anger. Maybe it’ll be easier for me one day in terms of relationships for now I’ll remain lonely.
Barely been in healthy enough mindset due to lockdown, so tired of living with my mom and sister they can be so hard to be around. I’m lucky to have plenty of entertainment for ions, I’d be a hella of a lot worse without my comforts.
Such an unfortunate and ghoulish thing how I feel so unwanted by hundreds of people, I’d do anything to get some good things to come my way! I wish I could also apologize to everyone whom expects more from me and thinks I’m capable of things that, well aspies aren’t packed with skills plus not a pedophile like some think!
Just a form of my venting despite the subject matter although I have had some amazing dreams that very much intrigued my inspiration, I’d totally have at least 15 ideas to pitch if I knew the right people. Hmm the uncertainty is powerful or weak either way I have fun with that.
I don’t know where my mind goes sometimes it unnerves me quite a bit. The realm of light and darkness seeping through opening a covered cave is my life in a nutshell.
Been a dreadful time mixed with very few good things especially in the last month! Lots of toxic energy lately that has burrowed into me and made my sleep rough including my IBS. Some crave negative things that have occurred which is mind blowing! It might be just be me but I feel like autistic people don’t have enough positive things happen.
It’s kinda like a never ending fall to an abyss sometimes; I feel like I can’t make it stop. The struggle of being lonely and interacting with people that I shouldn’t is something that feels re entry of poison seeping back in occasionally.
Either way I hope everyone else is doing well, I try to spread positivity to most people. It tends to vary the ones that accept me for the quirky being I am.
The wonder emporium of emotions people deal with especially during quarantine is bizarre! An open book of intriguing traits I am.“I can’t be of a group what am I am”? Great little riddle of a lonely person. I’m packed with confusing things to say I’m sorry for that at least I’ve been safe with endless entertainment of video games and film!
A boring day followed by strange interactions and perpetual dark thoughts that flow in like magma! I’m a glorified mystery with a unfortunate knack of upsetting online friends.
I get beyond up with the evil people that lie and don’t care about being my friend especially someone like me that is nice to many kinda like a care bear. What I never fathom is the ones that have Asperger’s and still clash with me!
So ready for the day to come when I can live a more independent life without as much loneliness that haunts me! I guess on the plus side I have a few good people that I can depend on no matter what that’s important, inspirational and heartwarming.
The respective of things are the positives that can be laid out in perfect narratives; I love to fiddle with words sometimes it’s fun and keeps my mind happy. I love the saying at the end of the day it’s not gonna matter, that’s an important lesson I have to remember sometimes! #Autism #Writingcommunity #Venting #Inspiration