Enter the mini portal of my mind

A bizarre interior for imagination and an exterior of a weird skinny guy! Loads of interesting, ambient waves of emotions or somber ones, in my story. Realm of unknown, uncertainty, and unfortunate things I’ve experienced!

The many things I’ve been through since I started special needs class is astonishing along with morbid, and honorable to me maybe others that I’ve made it as far as. Crazy amount of times I’ve been taken advantage or bullied has really discouraged me in a way I wish it didn’t. I might not be best with extraordinary details but I try to express myself with the best of my ability.

My sudden sparks that flow through me is fun creativity of my history. I miss a lot of things even my mom says I should blog about things I miss, I figured I’d do a different one in fact that’s a wonderful thing that’s known “Different not less”! I mean I do miss adventures that’s one thing among many.

I enjoy my peculiar ways although it’d be nice to experience some more independence and other variations of adult things; I often feel not my age of 27 especially the way I live. It’s ok though in due time maybe when the society is at ease again after the collapse of our economy, such an intriguing thing to me at the same time especially in movies about society like Falling Down good times. #Autism #Writingcommunity #Thoughtsfromanaspie #Writer

I wonder what society will be like in the next year when things are different

The stock market has plummeted, drama is infused often, businesses are closing, and more people are dying more! I can only imagine how many people are fed up with quarantine; it’s like if a turtle wanted to make his way through several states.

I’m sure doctors are struggling so much right now or anyone else whom has to work hard during these taxing times. My tedious routine is so tiresome and blistering madness!

Some people are probably satisfied with they’re life I don’t know if I can be happy for awhile. I’m in need of good things to happen soon in any way possible!

Maybe there’s a bigger picture to many things coming kinda like how the name of my blog is meant to be deep which is meant to be profound! I’d love to experience more deep thoughts and connect with others on the same wave link of thought processing. #Autism #Pandemicthoughts #Society #Writercommunity #Writer #Fear

Controversial things are wild and intriguing

So dark, bleak and unorthodox! The way people act when things are slightly wrong or misunderstood is disgusting behavior especially when I barely have good friends on my side.

I love controversial stuff especially in movies or topic that I can learn from so despite the brash things thrown at me like metaphorical tomatoes in a upset audience! It’s unfortunate how #autistic people are barely given chances especially in the worst circumstances where it’s difficult to reason with the person without throwing insults; it’s best to be calm and mature even in disasters important people have to maintain the situation.

Society can be so cruel and provocative I’m uncomfortable with that. I want wholesome vibes flowing towards me, I hate how hard it is for an aspie like myself to connect with most anyone! I don’t know where my mind goes sometimes but I know my unique ways should be considered important maybe I can blossom even from a bad scenario.

These quarantine times hit some worse than like #Writersblock, pain, drama, and struggle with sleep; I’m implore more imagination! I’m in need of things to be easier no matter what that means. #Writercommunity #Controversy #ASD #Fsociety

I feel a strange poison in me sometimes for various reasons

It’s a bizarre phenomenon to me how many conflicts I run to every week or every two weeks. The most vile things get said to me over little things or a misunderstanding of me trying to be friendly and one that will haunt me forever is not knowing certain jokes due to my autism.

Definitely not healthy to deal with toxic people especially when I get stressed and then have painful stomach pains! Either way at least I have positive vibes more than the negative ones; in my pretend alternate universe of my bizarre mind/home. My magical abyss where majestic creatures release from my beautiful cerebellum! I might be complex but I love myself and hope others do too. #Autism #Writingcommunity #Stopbullying #IBS

Writers block and the blooming flower of my reawakening

A reawakening in my own form of kindling a bonfire 🔥 of greatness and glory of my oh so profoundness; mind of a autistic guy 🧩. I’m a being with many quirks where my mom even says I should blog about my rules maybe that’s a good idea!

I tend to fuss about cabinets being left open, things being lob sided, me touching things an even amount, having a shower time, peculiar sounds, mystified confusion of changes, using the same items frequently, among many other things like too much clutter or dirt I like to be a neat freak. The way my brain is wired is unorthodox and remarkable that should be accepted by many! #Autism #Writingcommunity #Writers #Profound #Writersblock #Vastvocabulary

Westworld is so damn good so is anything else just as profound!

A perfect well acted, crafty written and comforting Sci-Fi experience! I’m so jealous of the brilliant people behind such a show about robots that pose as humans and improve by others that control them. I appreciate anything thought provoking such as Butterfly Effect, Inception, Cube, and Donnie Darko; projects done right with a different tone that than most!

The simplicity of things existing or not is a wonderful thing like the possibility of time travel or otherwise similar things is glorious. It’s a necessity to get the mind going, as heard in Get Out “The mind is a powerful thing to waste”. I crave that stuff like no other, the goosebumps I get from certain intense things is one of my favorite things too when I watched Killing Eve I got goosebumps 5 times that was wonderful! #Autism #Thoughtprovoking #Writer #Westworld #Puzzles #Writingcommunity

Health confusion

I feel so bad for people that drink energy drinks, smoke cigarettes, eat fast food carelessly, or otherwise like how there’s actually healthy options that exist like the vast amount that don’t take vitamins!

Potentially so many could do more for themselves if they cared more, maybe it’s wrong of me to be concerned for humanity as a whole. I do spend a lot of time thinking in my alternate universe of abyss and bliss! Feeling great mentally is important although I’ll never understand those that destroy they’re body on purpose and not even try to change it. #Autism #Writingcommunity #Health #Inspiregreatness