Lots of tension lately

Such a ghoulish thing to embody the stress of being misunderstood and have my own family not give a shit what I think! Lovely time we’re dealing with quarantined inside around family too much where even a little point of mine about something is disagreed with even by saying how it could’ve been worded differently that disturbing.

Just living with #Autism is hard enough it’s even worse when my own mom is against me! I’m sorry I have been on writers block regardless of anything I’ve been really into gaming which comforts me most of the time. Hope everyone else is doing fairly well during such a unique time in our lives. I may not achieve my goals but at least I try to be happy I guess. #Writingcommunity #Writersblock #Quarantine #Autism #Familydrama #Fame

Just want to put out there I have Asperger’s and I want to help others that might understand!

I’ve been through a lot of different struggles in many variations and have many peculiar quirks that are hard to understand/fathom. A lot of things that make me uncomfortable to think about it’d be great to poor out to through a podcast or any form!

Another topic is having nightmares that are inspirational and extreme yet profound too. The vast amount of projects that have been produced to the world is astonishing the stem of idea is beautiful. #Autism #Writingcommunity #Inspiration #Blogthursday

Beyond me

So strange I have days where my luck is out the window in many different aspects sometimes I wonder if I’m cursed. In relationship sense I’ve ruined things and gaming has it’s horrible times especially in Dead by Daylight I tend to die first.

I’m happy my writing somewhat gets support it’d be superb if it blew up! Unless I’m not meant for it this it’s still fun in an express myself way and hope for something more!

Facepalm 🤦‍♂️ of my life in a rut, in purgatory, and in frozen darkness. The day was sultry in its odd ways.

🧩Autistic and unsure of the path I’m meant to take definitely feels weird. Illuminati controls thy earth people just accept it as is brainwashed even into thinking doctors are gods chosen disciples that fix everything they fucken don’t the sooner people realize that the better. #Autism #Profound #Fame #Saturdayblog #Writingcommunity #ASD

“You can’t have me and you can’t have the baby”

I saw Invisible Man for the second time today before that I saw The Way Back both are so damn good! Thought provoking mastery are words that come to mind which is my favorite thing in cinema.

A spark of bliss is enlightened when I sleep well! Life has many off days throughout its span that can really exhaust the mind and fill the spirit with darkness.

The off chance I ever work in the film industry like I’d love to do I’d like to create a movie like Cube 1997 that’s a wonderful film with touches of horror. So exciting to me to even think of possibilities owww man I wish I could go to a studio and be like ok I have an idea then express it as if it’s a symphony orchestra!

Well either way it’s fun to play around with my thoughts and poor them out like rain. I’m quite an unorthodox guy with many insane or sane thoughts ain’t that fun? I don’t know maybe I’m just a weird autistic being. Vocabulary does intrigue me for sure though! #Autism #Writingcommunity #Fridayblog #Writer #Fame #Filmlover

Black water keep on rollin

Reawaken the beast you shall he’s stumbling within thy dungeon, made that up I’m not sure maybe my mind is warped into another dimension. The abyss would be a great place for fellow like me so out of sorts with what’s going on except entertaining myself for the time being, I suspect my darkness is a powerful entity sometimes yet I don’t let it overcome me.

My mind is an incredible vast filing cabinet of glorious thoughts that may or may not make sense but at least I have fun! It’s important to spread kindness to the world even feeling off that’s for sure!

Don’t mind my way of processing it’s a bit of different wiring that could be unorthodox, unworldly and mysterious; that’s a wonderful crafted piece of brilliance to me. In other notes all my Twitter accounts got banned which sucks donkey balls, I might need a new number eventually.

I reckon this year might still be great though like I want it be I’ve been connecting with aspies like me, might have opportunities for money soon, still get to see any movie I want, and I’m gonna do some other improvements like exercising. I absolutely love it when people talk about their demons inside them I think there’s plenty of clever ways to describe such emotions. #Autism #Thursdayblog #Writingcommunity #Inspiration

I’ve been having horrible writers block and now for a down poor of awesomeness

My peculiar mind has been in freezer mode, frozen in time and space I love stuff like that!

Regardless of me and my loss of things to write I do still write reviews on IMDb like a junkie!

In other news people have been panicking about the corona virus 🦠 which is insane it’d be a cool thing if Zombies 🧟‍♂️ became a thing to worry about it that’s a fun theory though because life doesn’t have enough going on at least for me.

A few pet peeves of mine id like to express is I can’t stand when people chew gum in movies or person it’s very annoying. Another one I have is loud noises aggravate me very much I know it’s an aspie trait though that one is common.

On another note I’ve been in need of money and I hate it wanting things is so disappointing and embarrassing.

How bout a brilliant thought or silly thing in a world where autistic people are mistreated into an alternated world full of nonsense. What about I clear away from but can’t hmm such is a bizarre puzzle that I’m unsure of what to do about; I mean will I ever figure out what I will do? Maybe not but at least I’m entertained plenty.

#Autism #Worldproblems #Seriesofthoughts #Saturdayblog

Imagine if symptoms could be turned off

I so wish my quirks had an off switch when inappropriate matters come up or anything in the realm of not normal! It’s very unsettling how I screw up then I end up the bad guy of something I didn’t even realize how bad it really is till it’s to late.

That’s not healthy like especially my anger issues I deal with is not good, it’s part of why I avoid the world; I’d do terrible things to someone that truly upsets me! Sometimes I like to pretend my happy place is an alternate universe where the society we know is different in better ways that’s comforting to me. Just a few thoughts that flowed through maybe good or bad depending on how they’re perceived but for sure #Autism is very misunderstood and difficult. #ASD